“When the lights go out, the demons come out…” Everyone asleep, but here I am lying deflated with my eyes immensely widened and experiencing no scope of sleep. And I cultivate into someone else entirely, someone who is stuck in her own scampered thoughts, someone who is trapped in the enigma of herself!!🤔
I lie supine, thinking of what not and then I realise that the earphones are still on, the music smothered under my bustling thoughts is still playing. I shook my head off in order to get rid of those glutinous thoughts emerging in my mind, but….hmph!! Eventually, I did not realise when I elapsed into a deep slumber when it was already the next day, the tapering sunshine descending on my arid face.. And what I see next is that everyone’s already awake. And I think to myself that “Am I always out of place?”. When everyone else’s slept, I am ‘owling’ like anything and when I rouse up, I have no one beside me.
I think that sometimes, think that maybe I am missing out on what others are experiencing, missing out on perhaps the life what others enjoy living, think that maybe I’ve been continuously failing to grasp their genre and horizons. But then I am dragged to a belief and I feel that the elegance of my peculiarity is much much better, at least for me!! I feel that the vague spot of mine is apt for me, at least it’s my own!! And finally, I attain an answer to that question of mine… I ain’t out of place always, rather most of the time that ‘place’ is out of place for me..!! Because you can’t blend in when you were born to stand out.💕☺